Headaches lol

Today was weird. It was awesome, but at the same time sad. It felt like I was missing something all day. I guess its been like that for years though. Something always missing. I have, although, throughout the years figured out what the missing thing is not. Its not what I thought it was. Its not a solitary object or idea. Its a combination of things. I do believe its coming together this time though.
I realized a lot in the past few weeks. More than I thought I would. I realized that knowledge, which used to be my favorite thing, has now become somewhat of a curse. I am just so flooded with information, that its getting crazy lol. My mind has been ridiculous, going nonstop, just racing. I keep noticing the relationships between two seemingly completely unrelated things. All the time, everywhere I go. Its kinda entertaining, but at the same time, its annoying that no one else notices it.
People can be so unobservant. I know I can be.
But anyway, Ive been working on this poem thingy since July and I just finished it yesterday lol. Which should have told me something when I started it... But I was naive.

I used to feel like I had it all,
But then it was taken away.
I tried to keep it out of mind,
But it’s there almost everyday.

I always tried to be strong for you,
But you wouldn’t be strong for me.
I always came over and wiped your tears,
But when I cried, you let me be.

Then whenever I was lonely,
Sad, upset, or scared,
You would never be there.
Its like you never cared.

Now the world just seems empty.
And, I’m not sure what to do.
I really don’t like all the pain,
Its end seems overdue.

I remember when times were good.
Those memories seem far away.
Not much I can do now.
There’s nothing left that I could say.

I hope that you get something out of these posts. I dont expect anyone to read this, and I dont know if they do, but I would like to hopefully make the reader realize something about themselves, or maybe gain a little wisdom. I dont know. But either way, Peace!

Kindness

So I wanted to be writing more, but lately I haven't even been getting home till late and I usually only write at night lol. Yesterday was 10/11/10 which is 46 in binary btw haha :D.
So my story:
I was scouring the internet for random things today, and I found something that really struck me. I ran into a post about not being alone; how even though certain terrible things may happen to you, you aren't alone in going through them, and eventually, everything will turn out as it should. I don't even know who posted it and I don't know why it had such an impact on me, its something I already pretty much knew, but it was just so sad and I could actually relate to what they were talking about. It was sort of like a random act of kindness thing that somebody posted. And even though they were going through hard times, they still took the time and energy to try to comfort others, random strangers, who are going through similar difficulties. Usually, my respect for people is pretty low, but that's because people do some stupid things, but this, this gave me hope for human-kind.
So that's my story for today. I hope that was insightful and I'm not just suffering from lack of sleep haha. Tomorrow is another day, the birds will chirp, the sun will shine and the trees will sway in the wind. Life is beautiful. Peace!

Marhaban

So I've had this for almost a year, and I've barely posted anything haha so I've decided to write more. I know no one reads this, because you can search all day and never find my blog, but I dont care lol. Yep.
Lately my mind has wandered a lot. I like when it does that. I thought about stuff and realized that a lot of crazy things happen to me. Some things are hilarious lol, but others are really really annoying. But even those annoying things are funny in the end because I can always count on Karma. She never fails me. It may not be today, and it may not be tomorrow, but eventually she will come back to you. I always try to stay on her good side, and I usually succeed so I don't really have to worry. People always destroy themselves in the end though.
But anyway, I like Doritos. That's pretty much all I had to say today. Peace.

hem-de-lay-la-la-la oochie walla walla

So I reflected a lot today. It was a good day. But I got to thinking about things. There is a reason for everything I do and everything I say. It's all deliberate and there is a plan for it. Granted, sometimes what I do isn’t right, but it needs to be done. That’s how life is sometimes. Even that thing. It wasn’t right, but it needed to be done. The alternative would have been much worse. Yes, I had to “take one for the team” so to speak, but that’s all part of the plan. No, I didn’t know it was going to go down quite like that, but it was still worth doing. I don’t generally hate, I find it stupid, and I still don’t really. Mostly, I just lose faith in human kind. In my life, that faith is pretty much down to zero. Its ridiculous. But anyway, that was my day. A lot of staring off into space and being quite lol.